on loving God and loving people [also, big decisions]

I went to a really great event hosted by my church yesterday night called Arts in the City and came across this artist [playing with poet Jake Tucker]: and I really am loving his work… also stumbled across his blog and learned that he was a Regent student and completed his M. Div. In a reflection on his Regent experience, he had these thoughts:

In terms of loving God and others more deeply (perhaps the most important measurement for how well one does anything) I’m concerned that I have not done well. (Lord have Mercy on me!) Right now I feel tired…and broken.

Yes.

This thought was actually repeated as well by my most closest and dear friend tonight [in yet another devastatingly irritating Internet fritzing Skype conversation that will be continued in person in a mere two weeks!]: as long as our choices are made with a desire to better love GOD and love PEOPLE, they are good choices. These must be the measures by which we live and lead our lives.

I made a big decision this past weekend.

It was necessary, but required courage. I know that it was made with the intention of re-learning who I am and how I can love God and serve others well, and better. May you and I be lead to love deeply, genuinely and generously, from grace-filled hearts. Amen, so be it.

on blogging

so, I want to guarantee that this blog will be updated more than periodically. ew. even the word ‘blog’ has bad connotations. is it because everything, even journal-like entries are becoming fair game for public entertainment and scrutiny? yes.

onto something that’s actually readable: teaching. this is still a go. I know! 4 or so days in and I’m still going strong. only now I want to go to Regent before/afterhand, to get a Masters of Christian Studies. This will allow me to become a college/university prof (but this isn’t useful- I just want to teach Christian stuff to the youngins) or to go into Ministry, something that at least one of my friends would highly commend me to.

actually, I came across an old Skype conversation that I’d had about this with this friend:

me: Regent costs $12 ooo

her: that’s because the Gospel’s for the rich. haven’t you heard?

me: I don’t want to learn the Gospel there. I want to learn ABOUT it.

That encapsulates my interest in going. Although it is indeed expensive. And I’m pretty sure that Jesus wouldn’t have gone to Regent… would He?